This will be a brief post that I just needed to get off my mind and put out.

Lately, I have been feeling kind of off with things. I have found myself getting in deep thoughts, thinking about life, where I am and where I am going.

I have been short with those around me and have felt disconnected from everything and everyone, feeling overwhelmed with many things going on in my life and the world – and it has made me completely tired, to be honest.

I don’t know how I can deal with it – but I will first try to deal with it by disconnecting myself from things – the thing in question is social media. On Wednesday, I decided to deactivate all of my social media accounts. What will I get out of doing this? I am not 100% sure. Do I think it will help in contributing to making me feel better? Yes, I do believe it will. I will be trying this for one month and will keep track of how I feel and how I do.

I have a love-hate relationship with social media. I love it because I have seen it grow from different platforms. I’ve witnessed things like Hi5, Bebo, Myspace, come and go, twitter (X), Instagram, and TikTok takeover (there’s probably some I don’t even know about). Seeing how far social media has come over the years is astonishing. I’m a tech guy, too, so seeing the technology used for social media catches my eye and entices me (to an extent). 

The hate side of love-hate is that it can negatively impact you deeply – I have seen how it has changed people, caused people to change their views on things and try too hard to be someone they’re not, and that is one of my main gripes about it.

I don’t like how much time I have spent/wasted on it. One of the first things I would do when I woke up would be to go onto my phone, check the time and then scroll through social media. Before taking my medication, before brushing my teeth, before showering and getting ready, I would spend a significant amount of time on my phone, and that is not healthy.

The same thing happened before I slept; I would fall asleep 9/10 times, scrolling through socials and watching endless amounts of less-than-minute videos. It got so bad that I would fall asleep and forget to set my alarm for the following day.

I feel that deactivating my social media will contribute to being the first step toward feeling connected with things around me in my personal and professional life.

In doing this, I have tasked myself with things to do in replacement of social media. Things that will positively impact my life, Physically and Mentally. Such as:

For the next month, I will:

  • Read a book cover to cover.
  • I am giving myself a month to do this because I am a slow reader, which puts me off reading. Plus, I can’t call myself a writer if I don’t read as much as I should. I need to improve my vocabulary and learn new writing styles.
  • Complete Physiotherapy Exercises
  • My physiotherapist has given me exercises to complete a few times a week in the next month and a half, so this is the best time for me.
  • Write whenever I can.
  • Earlier in the year, I would write at any moment, whether on my notes or in my mini notebook. I will dedicate time to do this again within the next month. This should help me improve my post structure rather than switching it at the last minute.

I have others that I intend to do, but I will keep them as a personal accomplishment for myself.

Within the next month, I hope to have gained some form of structure in my life, understanding and connection with those around me and mainly with myself. This current feeling isn’t the best, but I know that this step is something I have to try to develop as a person in life.

As much as I feel disconnected right now, I know there will be a time when I will feel connected again – in due time.