After each year, I learn more about myself. I know what I want, who I want to be and how I want to go about things. I make these changes as much as I can but have realised that I have never fully made the changes entirely. I ask myself why and have noticed that things don’t tend to resonate with me the way they do with others, and it takes a while for me to understand something – you could say that I may be a little slow when it comes to processing things. I could be told something, but it would initially go through one ear and out the other. I would always get into arguments because I couldn’t understand or take in what was being said to me.
I’d be lying if I said that 2022 was the best year of my life – it was far from the best. In fact – I think it could go down as one of my worst years due to many factors. Job unsatisfaction, miscommunications, no understanding of people, loss, and death all played a part in 2022 being a shit year for me. With it being one of my worst years, I can honestly say that I think I have learnt more from 2022 than I have in any year in my life. I always regarded 2017 as the worst year of my life, as mentally, I was not there; I was broken. However, 2022 takes the cake for the reasons I mentioned.
Being the optimistic person I am, I ended 2021 the same I ended every year – with positivity and hope for a better forthcoming year. However, with life being life, it didn’t start that way for me in 2022. In the first week of 2022, I ended up in the hospital due to my ill health during the Christmas period – it shook me as I genuinely thought I was dying. The darkness surrounding me was a horrible feeling I never want to feel again. Life can be put into perspective when you experience a feeling close to death – it makes you see things differently and makes you want to make the changes to better your life.
Throughout 2022 I had many ups and downs in my personal and professional life – I had many interactions that I wish had never happened and situations that I wish I were never in. I let myself down with how I dealt with things, how I reacted to things and how my actions affected those around me.
While 2022 was the worst year I have ever experienced, it was the best year I have ever learned from. Life is about growing from our problems, growing as a person and learning from everything we experience. I admit that I am not entirely there when it comes to learning and growing from situations I have been in; I’m human, I have my flaws, and I know I am not perfect. I also know that I never give up on anything, no matter what – especially when I feel optimistic about something.
For 2023, I want to be able to approach things differently compared to previous years. To do that, I need to learn to react in a new way to stuff in my life; rather than close up and put a wall up, I want to talk things out and confront them as hard as they may be. I have to do better this year; better yet, I need to do better.
For those reading this, I want to say Happy New Year and wish you nothing but positivity, blessings and success for 2023 and your future.